Reflection # 3

Delmy DelCid

Mrs.DeFeo

October 22, 2011 Reflection # 3

Writing fiction is a part of you that wants to get away from reality and you create your own world where everything is the way you wish it would be. My fictional writing all come from my surrounding, my experiences, my dreams and what I want my life to be. “I write about the things that trouble me, I write about the things that disturb me, the things that won’t let me alone, the things that are eating my brain at three in the morning, the things that unbalance my world.” Writing fiction to me is an adventure, a trip outside my reality that makes me feel safe and comfortable. My surroundings tell me everything that I want my life to be as well as reminding me about the problems I am going through and the ones I have been in. “ I carry these things around inside my head until I’m compelled to write them down and get rid of them. I sit down and begin.”

My observations to create a good story would be about my experiences dealing with my first love. Most fiction stories are based on relationships. Fairytales become really important to my writing because I used this to create the perfect relationship, but sometimes family comes first. Dealing with family also inspires me to write fiction because of how my family is and how I want my family to be. “Perhaps the best thing about family is that all of the emotions within it depend upon love, which is the most powerful. All the darker one—rage and hatred and resentment—result from the absence of love, or its withholding; but love is the prime mover.” When I write about either my family or love, is all based on my experiences that I dealt with throughout my life. My disappointments, my dreams and my turning points are all based on my life but I add some things that become a lie and it becomes my fictional writing, my recipe of my escape. “I know where I’m going; I’m going toward that troubling moment, the unforgivable statement, the irreversible act that has been gnawing at me.” This quote relates a lot to my writing because my writing is all about me and all those feelings that stay inside me and don’t have a way to come out but through writing it’s different.

The themes I use from my observations would be love, hate, family and yourself. I mostly use these themes because I have a lot of experience with each of them and it’s become a power for me to write about these themes. “We’re people elated, sustained and nourished, all by the powerful, devastating, inescapable bonds within the family.” Creating a story out of these four themes becomes a really great story because it becomes a true story to some of the readers because either they lived it through or they are going through it. Writing fictional becomes my strength because I can relate my writing to others writings and escape from what a person or myself are trying to escape from.

Journal # 8

Character Profile Worksheet

Basic Statistics

Name:Mathew
Age: 19

Nationality: Columbian
Socioeconomic Level as a child: middle class
Socioeconomic Level as an adult: middle class
Hometown: Queens
Current Residence:
Occupation: Play soccer
Income: N/A
Talents/Skills: Great cook, knows Latin, Played for US National Team in 2010
Salary: Doesn’t work
Birth order: N/A
Siblings (describe relationship): one sister and one brother
Spouse (describe relationship):N/A
Children (describe relationship): no children
Grandparents (describe relationship): don’t live with him
Grandchildren (describe relationship): don’t have
Significant Others (describe relationship): N/A
Relationship skills: N/A


Physical Characteristics:

Height: 5’11
Weight: 150
Race: Hispanic
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: Black
Glasses or contact lenses? None
Skin color: light
Shape of Face: round
Distinguishing features:
How does he/she dress? Soccer clothing, clean
Mannerisms:
Habits: (smoking, drinking etc.) drinks
Health: good condition
Hobbies: playing soccer, shopping, eating, partying
Favorite Sayings: you are beautiful
Speech patterns: None
Disabilities: none
Style (Elegant, shabby etc.): elegant, sporty
Greatest flaw: his teeth
Best quality: his body


Intellectual/Mental/Personality Attributes and Attitudes

Educational Background: finished high school, working on getting to college
Intelligence Level: 3.0
Any Mental Illnesses? None
Learning Experiences: N/A
Character's short-term goals in life: N/A
Character's long-term goals in life: N/A
How does Character see himself/herself? He sees himself as a very motivated person and believes in himself and doesn’t care about what others think.
How does Character believe he/she is perceived by others? He believes that people show him what kind of mistakes he makes and learns from them.
How self-confident is the character? He is very self confident.
Does the character seem ruled by emotion or logic or some combination thereof? Som

etimes both.
What would most embarass this character? That he can be a shy person.


Emotional Characteristics


Strengths/Weaknesses: believing in himself and knowing that he can do whatever he can set his mind to do;
Introvert or Extrovert?
How does the character deal with anger? He learns to control it
With sadness? Thinks about something that once made him happy
With conflict? Tries to come up with a solution
With change? Learns from the changes
With loss? Doesn’t show emotion among people
What does the character want out of life? His injuries
What would the character like to change in his/her life? Being able to go to college without his injuries
What motivates this character? Looking back at his childhood
What frightens this character? Being injured and not being able to be the same anymore
What makes this character happy? Playing soccer with the people his loves
Is the character judgmental of others?no
Is the character generous or stingy? generous
Is the character generally polite or rude? Generally polite


Spiritual Characteristics

Does the character believe in God? yes
What are the character's spiritual beliefs? God is above all
Is religion or spirituality a part of this character's life? religion
If so, what role does it play? He goes to church with his family every sunday

What does this character want?? Need? Wish? Hope?

He wants to become a person with a great future and being able to say “hey I was there before and look at me now”. The character needs people to help him out and being able to learn from other. The character wishes that due to his injuries he couldn’t go to a great college with a soccer career but instead he is not in college. The character hopes that soon he will have a better and bright future and everything will come out the same way he planned it from before.

This is the type of person who….

1. Will wear anything without caring about any judgment.


2. Will convince his team they are the best and lead them in the right direction.


3. Won’t let any of his flaws get in the way of achieving what he wants.


4. Would sacrifice anything to get where he wants to.


5. Doesn’t let anyone in the way of his future.

Journal # 7

Waking up each morning to the sound of your voice. The sun shines on my face as I open the window. Birds singing to the melody of the crickets. The smell of a new day flows all over my room. The warmth of the sun, heats my soul. Just to know it was all gone that day.

Journal # 6

A. For Sale: Baby Shoes, Never Worn
Pink stripped with white lace size 2. Growing up under the stars, picking left overs from the world. Walking around with the shoes god gave me. These shoes were my world and my way to get around. I walked passed a rich white house and that’s when I saw those shoes. They were brand new but I couldn’t afford then. I cried the whole night but I was thankful for my shoes.
B. Soccer becomes my passion for life.
C. Moving forward with the clock slow.

journal #5

Blazing hot sand was parked the blue Ford skinny car that Johnny owned. Johnny owned this car since he was 13 years old. The village people envied Johnny and his car. Best friend Zachary, one day had the courage to destroy this car. On a rainy Saharan day, Zach was playing with his friends. “Hey Zach, look at Johnny’s car, isn’t hot?” “You know it, I wish I had it.” One of Zach’s friends gave him a 50lbs hamper. “What I am going to do with this?” “Destroy the car obviously, you know Zach that’s what you want.” Zach always had his eye on that car but he knew that didn’t belong to him. His gut told him “ have the courage and strength to do it and not care about what Johnny thinks” but another voice was telling him “ No, don’t do it.” Zach had ended up listening to his other voice and destroyed the car, without thinking how Johnny would react to this action.

Reflection #2

Miller and Hoffman’s writing interest me because they can write personal experiences and convert them into a fictional story. Writing fictional in actual events feels like your writing in a whole new world in which I or the writer can get away from reality. According to Miller’s writing “I needed a fictional place to which I could escape and had neither the time nor the psychic energy for a larger project.” I can relate this quote because sometimes I feel that I can write and create a place where I fit and be myself which out anyone to judge me or anything. “I removed myself from everyone but my closet friends and family.” Miller states this in a way in which she doesn’t want anyone around her but those whom have been there for her, I’ve also removed myself from those who hurt me and learned that being alone with only those that care actually makes a person stronger and through my writing I’ve created a world that suits me.

“Writer’s don’t choose their craft; they need to write in order to face the world and this was still true for me.” Writing releases a person from the reality but sometimes it brings you into the world more than you can ever imagine. Myself as a writer, I get caught up with reality and I turn it into a world where is all based on my reality. It was hard to get away from my work in order to fictionalize my work because it’s based on my reality and sometimes writing reality becomes hard to fictionalize. Also it was hard because some emotions can’t be made up if it makes who you are. Apart of you must always be in my writing because as Hoffman stated “ Every reader can sense the difference between writer who embodies meaning through the events he describes and the writer who seems simply mired in those events,” in other words a reader can tell true or false emotions in a writer just by the way the writer writes In my writing there’s always a part of me because creating a fictional place to get away has to always have a part of the writer’s feelings.” By writing well and carefully and powerful,” I can relate to this quote because if a writer is a powerful writer than the reader won’t stop reading your writing and sometimes my writing can be really powerful or it can be weak.

Journal #3

It was on a sunny, windy Saturday, when I felt my world come down to pieces. I was destroyed and I knew that at that moment I won’t be able to be the same again. The wind felt as hard as id rocks were being thrown at my face. Tears ran down my cheeks fast as waterfalls. Inside, my soul cried, wanting to leave my body and never coming back. His name, Mathew. His name rings when I call him, his voice warm in my ears flowing in my head. A beautiful hot summer’s day of July 12, 2008 was the day I knew I was completely in love. Birds singing, bells ringing. Every time I saw him, was one of the best days of m life. His face, warm, pink cheeks. His smile soft, descent and elegant. He always knew how to make me smile. He became my only for my smile; the warmth of my body, the light of my day. Butterflies flew inside me every time we kissed, that’s how I knew he was Mr. Right. Every moment I spend it with him, my quinceanera, meeting my parents, grandparents, meeting my family. He became part of my family. He just wasn’t Mr. Right; he was my best friend, my soul mate, my everything. All good things have an end. Rumors were the cause of my fairytale ending. Cancer was the disease to my destruction. Rumors became the cancer of my relationship. Rumors spread the way cancer spreads all over your body. Cancer is what I felt that day, my body was slowing dying; my soul had no force, no strength. I was dead. Until this day, that breakup is easily healing but it’s aware of any other disease.